(not so blind faith)

How to describe the progress on bali offer? One word: dead-end.

Two weeks passed without any news, which is ok for me coz it gave me extra time to rethink the offer. Have been mulling over two major questions:
+ Is this part of God's plan in my life?
+ Do I really want it?

Tough to answer the 1st question. Some time ago I got stuck in another crossroads of life path but none happened, so I sorta stop asking "what is God’s plan?" & decided to just go where the wind blows. Did it make me lose my faith? No way, I’m a believer, I just think I need to 're-evaluate' the manifestation..

If they've called me immediately after the interview I would accept it with glee & I'd be packing by now. I admit I was excited with the possibility of moving somewhere else from Jakarta, just by myself. Free from parents some might think? Huh! Why would I wanna be free from my parents? I mean it's not like my life's bound to obey whatever my parents tell me to do. Not when one reaches my age, fercryingoutloud. They're quite moderate. They question my decision, & I just need to stand for it & give the best explanation. Being great parents they are, they’d give their blessings. After all, it's my life I'm living.

The rethinking period fortunately gave me lotsa time to reconsider things all over & the excitement depleted. I get to see the trouble, extra work from moving to another island, etc. I've made some rough calculation and list of what required and what might come up. Yeah, the logical me killed all the adventure thrill.

So I was more prepared when they called to negotiate. But we didn’t meet sound agreement during the talks. Perhaps I should talk directly to the prospective employer & not to the HRD person that seem too bureaucratic & not very persuasive? We were working on 2 key points: 1 was on starting date. They want me to join immediately, but I need time to terminate my current contract & to pack things up. Another point is number (yep, what else?). They gave me a revised offer, which is 30% higher than the initial offer. Not bad, even would be irresistable, if I the job's in Jakarta. Sounds greedy? Call it whatever you want, but I call it being realistic. Don’t forget I’ve to arrange my own relocation, housing etc.

C'mon, they CAN do better than that…! (^_^)

It does feel good when you're in a winning position & have nothing to lose. You could feel more at peace and assured that if it’s yours, it's yours. Money is not everything, that's a litany in my life, but when u’re faced with an opportunity like this, and later it turned out to be a bad decision, at least you're miserably loaded with monies in your bank account.

Kidding.